Hello Boo Boo Kitty,

Merry Christmas, I miss you so much. You were and still are such a big part of my life . . . my being. I feel as if I have lost my soul and are just wandering around for the short period I have left on this Earth. This letter expresses some of the things that I want you to know.

I am sorry for all the things that I did and said to you that were in most cases, so undeserving. Tho’ I loved you I did not always show or express it. I am not sure if I even knew how? What I am sure of is that my behavior sometimes hurt you as you expressed to me on occasions, but I was not smart enough to figure out, to acknowledge my fault and do what was right.

You stood by me through all the rough times, as I did with you, but we did not talk as we should have. This again is/was my fault. By nature I live within my own mind, but because you are/were essential to my life, I should have shared my thoughts and aspirations with you—my partner, my love– my friend.

This special day, and many in the future I will spend without you. It is so strange that you are not here? Many times this realization comes to me and each time it is new—and unreal. I still have a hard time accepting it. I get nearly physically sick at times—nausea.

I have or am in the process of giving your belongings to charitable associations. Much of the things that you gathered over the years I gave to Pam, I was sure that you would not mind, the rest went/will go to the Goodwill or Salvation Army.

I hope you are at peace now, no pain, no stress, and no misery. If you are able to look down and see me, please don’t think ill of me, I am just trying to cope, just trying to get use to my new situation. I am not sure what I am suppose to do. I am told “try to be happy” “to enjoy life”. There is no joy in my life without you. I know that you will not return, that nothing that I can say, do, or promise will change this.

I will visit you when I can. These visits will become less frequent, not because I have forgotten you, or don’t care any more. But because I will attempt to move on, I believe that you would want this. You will always be on my mind. I will remember the good times and the bad. The happy and the sad. You are forever my one and only love, my partner, and my friend. I lit a candle for us to light our way, we will meet again in paradise. Good bye Pepper, sleep tight, I LOVE YOU . . . .   SLIM                                                                                   Laugh Out Loud,  Live On Purpose,  Appreciate Life!!!